Settling in.

 Well...

It has been a while since I last typed here, and I only have myself to blame. I have a hard time juggling many things at once, and distractions get in the way. Easter Sunday has come and gone, gone but not forgotten, for the warmth of His Rising is still with me. I've had too many days of something or other taking up all of my time, pushing out of reach even the things I intended to do, should do but never get to, never mind sitting and talking to you. I'm having a knee replaced come May 5th, so doctors' appointments have taken up many of my days. A discovered heart noise made it necessary to have four unforeseen heart related tests to determine if I was fit enough to go under the knife. (I am.) I trip in the Winnie to upstate NY to visit Helen's brother and wife was a wonderful getaway, especially for H. Today my final appointment, a CT scan on my bum knee to get a good look at it. Hopefully I'm done with hospital visits until the call to tell me what time to arrive on the 5th for the surgery. Until then, do my exercises and wait for Spring to arrive. Here in NH, it takes it's time to fully arrive.

I'm hoping beyond hope to settle into a better regime of preparation for this upcoming surgery. I know this will be a personal test for me, as almost all surgery is for everyone. Everyone keeps telling me there is going to be a lot of pain, and I know there will be, but I'm hoping that my many years of living with pain will help me cope better with it and keep me on the straight and narrow road to recovery at a steady and fair pace. I have feelings in me now that haven't been with me, probably never, in the way I've been, so to speak, seeking God, in now, this time of my life. 71 times around the sun, with the last two to three years watching the old body go to he--, is not very encouraging. God is always testing us prodding us, showering us with graces, all in His effort to draw us to Him and to get us to heaven. The pain, the suffering, the troubled mind that we live with is all a sign of God's love for us. I would be putting my soul in grave danger if I looked at this time in my life from only a secular angel. No, I will remain with Our Lord and with Our Mother Mary by my side, and with Helen's care I will come through this and on to a better life for us all. Please keep me in your prayers...