Tuesday, April 27, 2010

From tears to silence

Tonight we have our monthly SFO meeting and this month I'm in charge of the Ongoing Formation part of it. All of us members are taking turns giving the presentation and I volunteered for this month to get it out of the way. I like it when other people do the presentation but I'm not fond of doing it myself, even though as Grand Knight I do a lot more talking before groups than I use to. Still not my cup of tea, though. It should last all of 5 minutes, with another 5 for question and answer. This should be the easy part of the meeting.
We have about 30 members professed, fairly large for such a small parish, and my fraternal Brothers and Sisters are really wonderful people, very spiritual. One or two of the women, though, and I shouldn't even mention this but it is true, well, we don't see eye to eye on some issues. There, I'll just leave it at that. I've seen and heard things that make me uneasy, but I'm always trying not to judge. Anytime I'm uttering a disparaging word about a brother or sister (meaning anyone!) I'm inflecting harm to Jesus. Think about that, for a minute. So here's hoping everything will go smooth. Our parish is getting a new pastor in a couple of months, Father R. moving down to Baltimore and a Friar is coming up here to take over, so I don't think any really new business will occur until he gets here. Anyone who has read my blog lately knows how I feel about the way things are going in our Church (all the reverence rants) and I'm hoping that when the new pastor arrives and settles in it won't be business as usual. But I'm afraid it will be.
Keep me in your prayers tonight, anything can happen when I have to public speak. From tears to silence, here I come!


the booklady said...

I don't like to speak in public either KAM. Sometimes it's so bad ... well, let's just leave it at that. ;)

Anyway! I'm praying the Holy Spirit was with you, gave you His strength, comfort and wisdom born from the Love of the Son for the Father and the Father for the Son!

May the Blessed Trinity be your guiding comfort and peace!

brother Joseph, SFO said...

Brother Kam,
As you know Jesus was unhappy about a lot of things - a big one was His closest friends (us?!) Yet you also know how much He loved them. Enough to suffer and die for them (and us!) I remember a trial in which I refused to call myself a Christian because I was so disgusted by Christians failing my beloved Savior. Jesus, gently, reminded me He loved them even tho they failed Him and that, regrettably I failed Him all the time as well! He also forgave me. I had no chance at that point and with tears repented and promised to love . . . no matter what. It is hard but . . . it is the way of Christ, the way we are resolved to go down, right brother!? God bless you in your suffering. "They shall go forth sowing tears but return with arms filled with the sheaves of joy!" Death and resurrection - that's the way it works! Also thank you for joining my blog!