The desire of the wicked leads to doom. How many times have I read that in the Liturgy of the Hours? One need not necessarily be wicked to be lead to doom. We strive and then we are set back, and sometimes we don't even know we have fallen. St. Francis said something like 'The devil will pursue a soul forever, all he needs is a crack the size of a hair.' It is impossible to keep satan out for it seems at times that we (me) offer him fistfuls of hair. In this world, unless we are almost completely sheltered (cloistered) we are prone to the rage of the ocean, to be tossed by the waves. Who can survive? None, if we give in, give up.
Adoration, for me, as I've said before, is two hours, 5-7pm. Our Lord pulls no punches with me, I really never know what to expect as I kneel before Him. For many months the long stay with Him was troubled, for the peace that I thought I should find as He gazed at me was never there. I felt at times that I'd walked up to a dark wall and stood, not being able to go any farther, not realizing that the wall I thought was the Face of God was really my own face. I'd put myself, my pride, my thoughts of control between me and my God.
Prayer and reflection bring about these changes, the Holy Spirit, who hears us call, brings about these changes. Our Virgin Mother's intercession helps bring about these changes, this tearing down of the wall of self that hinders our journey to God.
Salvation is only through the Cross,
the Cross held firmly in our hands,
held tight with the arms
of our heart.