12/1/05 19:40

Trying to get the feel for loving the blog, but haven't yet. It seems so unfulfilling to just do this without any feedback. Is anybody out there?
Being a good practicing Catholic I must look at the Christmas season through eyes that see only the good in people. I try but its very hard. The common ruck burns me up on a daily basis.

Rainy night

As the rain comes down from the nasty stormy weather that spread across the mid section of the country last night, I type. I'm stuck in a cycle of rising, working, returning, rising, working, returning. I look forward to the weekend and it's just a black hole in the week, never living up to my expectations.

I plod on.

I haven't heard, but O might be returning home from college for the T-Giving weekend. Wonderful! I miss him terribly, and I only hope that his returning home is not a letdown either. I can't see how it can be.

Leaves and such

As I sit here and check sites, e-mail, blogs and news, I'm waiting 'till 9:00pm to tape "Prisoner" or "Breakout" or whatever it is. Arrested devolopment is on, and It is one of the stupidest shows I've ever listened to! T.V. sucks!
The leaves fell and I blew them into the woods with my 'little giant' driveway vac. Then the leaves fell again and I blew them again and they fell a third time and now I'm done. I have no more time to blow. This is too late, I must go.

A weekend gone...

The road has brought me through another weekend, albiet a not very good one. The tension that builds from not having enough money is incredible. During the week I'm distracted from it but the weekend, well the weekend can be like a hole in the week, and sometimes a dark hole.

Saturday

Today on the rb50 I came upon my gardenlooking really worn-out and lost. H and I cleaned it up as much as possible, but the wind and cold really started to take it's toll after a while. We were frozen! The sun dissipeared and that was it for me. For the rest of the time I was just going thru the motions. But since it was C's birthday we decided not to work all day but add a little playtime. Royal Buffet was our target asnd a good choice at that. Six stations set up with really good food, five with Chi food and one with strictly American type stuff. We steered away from that. We ate until we were stuffed, then went up for the desserts. Not good stuff, but we nibbled. Tonight, alone, C at a friends house where they are giving her a surprize B-day party, H at work, and me here.

Minutes Later

The road beyond 50 has brought me to my first experiment with the BLOG. I'm just trying to recover the whole thing and not lose it. Call it a test in navigation.

Soccer on a cold night

The road beyond 50 brought me to a soccer field tonight, cold as it was nobody really caresd. My daughter didn't even get to play, Lord only knows why. A good game, even if the Good Guys lost. Even with many layers on the cold crept in and settled in my lower back, right side. Will try sex later on to relive the pain, all parties willing.